It was this year that I went over seas with myself and pregnant wife. I work night in a hospital and enjoyed the time. I found it quite pleasent to commute to and from work through a certain route. Within my town was an area known as “the wall”, which was the area where local prostitutes where located. 34/7, there where women either standing behind window panes or a door ways to get ones attention. I would purposely walk through this route to look and enjoy. It wasn’t until awhile later I would partake of those services.
As I worked in the hospital at night I found pleasure in conversations with the many females. I started noticing one was enjoying my company as well. She started doing small things like baking me cookies and dropping by my office alot. We talked and enjoyed each other’s company for hours. Soon she asked if I wouldn’t mind coming by her house after work. She was married and mentioned her husband was rarely home. I accepted and would go to her house, where she would make me breakfast and we chatted. Hanging out with a married woman was new to me, but I could feel her lust and desire. She seemed bored and wanting of more. I once suggested we go to peepshow and she surprisingly agreed. While there we both entered a booth together where for the first time she touched my penis. Her loneliness and desire for me were overpoweringly obvious. She would constantly want me to come over to her home and make love to her. I felt no real emotion towards her but discovered a true excitement in the conquering of any sexual barriers as well as having a married woman fall in love with me. This later part has become the most important factor driving my addiction. Married women falling in love with me and the challenge of getting them to that point is the pinnacle of my fantasies and my life.
As this was happening, I found my need to flirt and test boundaries was becoming more active. I worked with a spoiled wife of a senior officer and with every passing day I push the envelope to see how she reacted. I discovered she was very receptive to my flirtation. I was walk past her and touch her arm or brush her hair aside. We never discussed much in details of family or spouses. Eventually I was able to come up behind her and kiss her neck with no resistance from her. It was a willing acceptance to my actions but with no sense of guilt from her. I think she just liked the being used. It never escalated beyond fondling of her breast and hickies on neck. But this continued until she eventually moved away and we never really shared anything feelings. Simutanously (it seemed to repeat this multiple relationships scenerio alot). I started a relationships with a female nurse which quickly became sexual. Taking liberties that I shouldn’t have being married. On one night I stayed away all night I returned home in the am with the nurse friend and let her sleep on the to couch. I do not remember how I explained it to my then wife but I did. As you can imagine it was not long after that, that my wife and young daughter returned to the US. But I sent her back not her leaving me. She was now in the way of my wants and needs.
It was shortly after my wife left I had the nurse over nightly. I had a huge three bedroom apartment to which I soon rented out two room to co-workers. One was my gay boss who loved to bring home random German men. The other was a peer in my office. I would still meet the wife in the mornings, but I knew I wss pulling away as she was falling for me. The nurse kept me busy and was very adventurous. The houses in the German were close to each other and across the street lived a female who thankfully showered and changed with her window open. We all would watch from the living room and she became a habit to watch. My roommate peer at this time had a girlfriend that worked in our building. He would talk crap about her which I leveraged to my benefit. Sight flirting again with her as we rode an elevator or walk the same hall way. She resisted my flirting but held nothing back while I asked evening to meet my in the attic library. She knew my intent yet arrived at the time I requested. We spent about three hours of our shift there fucking like rabbits. It was intense and passionate and only time. The next day it was as if it had never happened and that’s how it reminded. Eventually with time I wished them luck on their marriage. A few months passed and the nurse became, eventually delivering a daughter. While she was in the hospital for a few days following the birth. I took a bold step and asked my neighbor across the street to come over, to my surprise she agreed. We watch Rocky and drank abit. She hardly spoke English and worked at an addidas factor – so she was gorgeous. Yes we fucked and see truly enjoyed the four point restraints I had fixed to my wood beam ceiling. After that night I knew she changed a slight bit slower at her window. The nurse was due to return to the US and I offered her nothing. I was still married so we departed and I said goodbye to her and my daughter.
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