As my military career started so did a different me. I found myself attracted to a female soldier and made every attempt to get her attention. Eventually she met me in the laundry room where I was able to feel her up. We later attended a football game where we shared a poncho in which she gave me a hand job while there. A few days later another female I first noticed on day one caught my eye again. We started talking and soon start kissing and messing around. I eventually meet her during or free time break. Instead of going of base, we meet in a field and have sex. She eventually falls for me and wants to see after we finish to training. I tell her we can all the while knowing I won’t stay in contact. After departing training, we stayed in contact but never meet again.

Seems like only yesterday that my sexual addiction started, but it has been decades. The feeling of finally labeling myself as such is new to me. I still done feel or understand how I came to be as I am but this is my story from the beginning.

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This is my story of my life I just been affected by my sexual addiction. As I read the post I’ve done so far I realized even I have forgotten to mention a few other relationships. Very few had an impact where I remember the names but I’m surprised looking back how many people were impacted. Luckily for me I feel no remorse very little guilt and I’m able to compartmentalize my feelings and emotion so I don’t think about my past history I was triggered by maybe a song a location a certain name and those are usually short-lived. I’ve been accused of being a narcissist which I’m sure I am. I feel that I’ve had a wonderful life and I’m not a bad person even with everything I’ve done. We only live once and mine has been hell of a ride. Enjoy the post I apologize for the typos hope you can decipher it.

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